It’s impossible to believe it has been a year since my sweet mama passed into Spirit. I had no idea last December what to expect in the days, months, and longest year that followed, and I’m not sure I have any greater sense of things now. I tried to write, both during her illness and in the months that followed because I wanted to be able to see what the world looked like then, and remember our journey to now. I think that was a good way to keep track of emotions and memories.
Category Archives: motherhood
Giving Thanks
In this ‘season of firsts’ we will be marking Thanksgiving tomorrow for the first time without Mom. Last year at this time was such a blur of hope, despair, exhaustion, faith, and fear…I don’t remember much about Thanksgiving day.
One Year On
Dear Mom,
I know it has been awhile since I’ve written, and I hope you will forgive me. I’ve spent a whole lot of time these past several months focusing inward to try to find my way forward. It has been a difficult, but rewarding journey, and I feel better able to face the Very Hard Days that are on our doorstep.
Mother’s Day 2023
It’s Mother’s Day weekend, and I’m sitting here this morning surrounded by Things to Hold You Close. We used essential oil and music during our last weeks together, and this is the first time I’ve brought those out to transport me back to those last days with you. It is comforting to find memories of you in the scent and sounds of peace and love, but at the same time there is a brutality to it.
To Live In This World... 