I’m sorry to hear about your mom
You are so lucky to all be together
Radiation should improve quality of life;
Look at my beautiful daughters.
Bloodwork is good, we are holding steady
Her temp is 101 something is going on
How’s your dad doing;
Hello sun in my face. Hello, you who made the
morning and spread it over the fields.
Do you want to take her to the ER or have an ambulance take her
She probably won’t survive sepsis
She probably will survive sepsis;
There's a divinity that shapes our ends,
Rough-hew them how we will.
The side effects of additional treatment outweigh the benefits
I think we have about a month;
Please…I just want to go home.
Silence <how did we get here>
Please let us know if there is anything we can do;
Do you think there is a doorway to Heaven?
Do you think it is wide enough for all of us?
I can’t imagine my tomorrows without her;
Where’s my Jonah?
Time for your pain meds
Aren’t you excited to dance with Jesus;
Look at my beautiful granddaughters.
You have to swallow the meds, Mom;
Silence <waiting with Spirit>
You are a beautiful child of God
It’s okay to go
King of Kings, and Lord of Lords. Hallelujah, Hallelujah!
Mother….Mother.
Separation is an illusion
We are all right here
Thank you for our beautiful life together;
Soar…Soar, Mama!
Silence <touching her last tear>
To Live In This World... 
Thank you for sharing this. So beautifully written and you can feel the depth of your grief. We don’t belong in this world. Heaven is our home.
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The depth of the grief is so profound. We felt God’s presence so strongly at times during this journey. As difficult as the days were, the promise of Heaven brings peace. ❤
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Hoo boy. This one. ❤ Love you so much, Bethy. "And I think, isn't it fun to have a secret?"
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Love you so much, Sissy. I hope somewhere in all of that you heard a jingle bell. ❤
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Every time Julie and I go over to the apartment, I accidentally set off a jingle bell or two. Still puts me on high alert. ❤
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I gotta say, reading your blog has helped me not feel so alone in this whole grief thing. You get it, which truly, honestly, really, sucks… but you get it! Reading this just brought up a whole bunch of emotions… cuz the words are all too familiar. Keep writing tho, you’re helping yourself but you’re helping me too.
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I hate that you know this road to loss, Charia. You have been such an inspiration to me in your faith and love of your family. There is something to finding the people who get it. In a strange way it helps. Sending you all my love! ❤
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I don’t know what to say. It hurts so much to feel the reality of your loss.
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Love you, lady. I know you feel this loss in a huge way as well. These things rattle around in my brain, so it helps to get them written down. At some point we need to drink wine and just cry a lot. And of course, toast to our Celia. ❤
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